More Panic

I wish I could just tell myself to calm down when I’m feeling anxious.  I really want to calm down, it’s just that my mind and body seem to take on a life of their own.  Today I was doing nothing out of the ordinary; I was simply trying to open the fireproof file cabinets with our important information in them, and I couldn’t open the lock.  It’s not something to get totally worked up about, I realize, but my mind and body went into overdrive and I ended up in a panic.  I really don’t want to go back on medication again.  I’m hoping I’ll eventually calm down on my own.